Good morning, dear One!  I have ached to write to You.  I have made up letters to You in my mind and heart.....but, I haven't actually been able to put anything together.  Today.....I have plugged in my "Hotspot" and I am going to get this done.  I am.  It is vital to my sanity today.  I am anxious to give You praise and thanks for putting together this plan for my life.....(which for all intent and purpose).....is our life.......(John's and mine).  I couldn't have thought of all of the nooks and crannies I have gone through.  You always leave a level of wonder.......a smidgen of a question.....an aura of peaceful hope.  And, it is in that place, I just try hard to lean back and depend on Your sustaining power to guide me into all the truth You have for me.  I have to admit, Lord.  I began to think that this whole scenario was a little odd.....even, out of sync with anyone else's thinking.  Who plans major surgery in the middle of a major change in one's life.  John's retirement, moving to a new place to live......in another state......packing up 50 some years of living......need I say more, Lord?  I am stunned at what You plan and how You do it with such little fanfare.  It's just "out there".  And, as I nodded "yes" to surgery, I thought....."No one would plan this but You, Lord!"  I do thank You for allowing me to have healed as nicely as I have plus working out all of the kinks that have fallen into Your  plan.   
Thank You, Father......for the years You have given us in the ministry.  We have been so blessed in the churches You have allowed us to pastor.  Thank You for giving my husband the wisdom, the energy, and the health to preach and teach Your story of salvation to so many people.....for so many years.  You created a man of honor and distinction, who lives and breathes a sermon every day he lives.  I am thankful that You insisted I share His life....and that he chose me to love 52 years ago.  I am blessed and loved and have nothing but praise and thanksgiving for all You have allowed in our lives.  (Smiling.....I say, the good, the bad and the ugly!)  
I pray in the name of Jesus.  Amen.





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Father in Heaven......Hallowed be Thy Name......Thy kingdom come.....Thy will be done......on earth, as it is in Heaven.  Give us this day.....our daily bread.....and forgive us our debts.....as we forgive our debtors......and lead us not ......into temptation.....but, deliver us from evil......for Thine is the Kingdom.....and the power, and the glory......forever.  Amen

It is with great joy that I can write my heart thoughts to You......and You, dear One.....listen.....with bated breath......to my words.  I am forever grateful for the grace and strength......to be the instrument for You that I need to be.  I want forever to be the horn in the brass section......or the flute, in the wind section.  I can hardly see myself in the drum section.....but......I could be, if that is what You would like me to be.  Each note.....tempered with grace.  \

I am filled with thanksgiving and praise for You.  For health and strength.....love and a grateful heart.  "The End is Near"  is a sign you often see in a joke setting.  But, this is not a joke.  We are blessed to be the recipients of a lengthy ministry and are still living to tell the story!! Lord, it is only because of You and Your abiding and deep love.  The tools You allow us, as Your children to have, can get us through the most difficult times in our lives.  We are beyond blessed.  Favored.  Yes, that is a good word.  And, yet.....how do You figure that, Lord?  I am so UN-perfect.  And, I always wanted to be!  Perfect, that is!   Yet, You.....I would surmise....get a kick out of our constant attempt to be so.  I looked at my Son-in-law, David, last evening.....and said,  "I hate it when I turn out to be wrong!"  Too often.....I will make a statement.....or answer a query......with such fervor.....and turn out to be soooo wrong.  I don't like to be wrong.  I want to be right. Is it because I would love someone to say....."Just listen to Corrine.....she's always right!"   But, since I am Yours.....and have to strive for the unreachable......I have to tell You, Lord......I get tired of trying to be like You. Mostly because the older I get.....I remember things like I want them to be!  Whoa!  I can't believe I just said that, Lord.  But, since, I am trying to be honest....I have to admit, I wish I were not so human!  I love knowing that You take me as I am......clean me up.....and make me Yours.  A member of Your family.  To be in Your family makes me proud.  And, I guess that would be a "good  kind of proud".  I hope, dear One.....that my attempts at "being all You want me to be"  don't nauseate You.  I hope, I am still a promise.....a possibility.....a light for You,  in a dark world.  Lord, help me to be the individual You need me to be.....wherever I am.

Thank You, Lord.....for allowing to me to be "The Pastor's Wife"  for such a long time.  I praise You for that reality.  It has been a dream come true.....for me.  I thank You for giving me the tools in Your word to help me handle the sometimes terrible attitudes and spirit I ended up with after a particular encounter with someone "in the church".  The fact that You wave Your magic wand, and allow the gift of forgiveness to reign in my life.....after I have "blown my cool"......or listened to someone blow theirs about me or mine.  The web of lies the enemy uses to paralyze me afterwards......well, Lord......it's frightening how it can wreck my spirit and make me so miserable, no one wants to be near me.  How in the world You take that......and ask only that we say the words.  Lord.....and You  change my heart and spirit.  You are the miracle worker.   Thank You, dear One.....for doing that for me.....over and over and over.  I  love being the recipient of Your grace.

It has given me peace that passes all understanding.  I have loved serving You in this role I was given.  I thank You, Lord.

I pray in the name of Jesus.  Amen

A second edition of my book, "My Letters to God" is at the printers now.  (same book, just a few changes)  You can order it from AMAZON.COM   or  from the hopefreelancing.com website.  I thank you so much for taking an interest in reading "My Letters to God".