Dear One.....Here I am, about as bowed as I can be and still write. I remember asking the physical therapist who worked with me after my second knee replacement....”Do you think I’ll ever be able to kneel again?” He didn’t give me much hope that I’d be able to...with any comfort level I could live with. He did look at me wonderingly....hmmm.....I’m not sure it’s a word, but I think You know what I mean. I’m not worried about it, Lord. I think that when I am going to be in Your presence....I’ll more than likely be prostrate. Oh, I forgot....by then, my knees will be new, won’t they?
Sorry, Lord, I didn’t mean to go on and on about my knees. I am back after a bit of a dry spell. Sometimes my excuses for not “writing out loud” really are pathetic and more than likely worrisome to You. I won’t go on about them.
My thoughts turned to You this morning as I was watching an interview of daughter, Anne Lotz, with her mother, Ruth Graham. I watched and listened carefully as she went through her life, decisions and writings as a girl to womanhood, marrying her life love and raising her children. Asked if she worried about any waywardness of her children....she said she felt that the Holy Spirit would fill in any gaping holes that she couldn’t handle. She mentioned that “The Hound of Heaven” would find even the farthest one away. Lord.....I’ve heard the title, but other than that, I have no remembrance of ever reading it. Of course, Lord, I went to “google” it and came up with numerous places to peruse it. Hah! Lord, actually I needed “ ‘The Hound of Heaven for Dummies!’ “ Father, I learned a long time ago that because I don’t understand everything that has been written, including specific words of the scriptures....You will make known to me what is true, vital and most assuredly what I need to know in finding myself standing in front of You one day. For my heart to be true to You by accepting that I....(we), are in need of a Savior because we have been born into a sinful world.....we have a sinful nature....and are bound to it, unless we stand up and declare that “I am a sinner.” I did that, Lord, long ago, but often have to remind myself, that the battle for me is over. I guess, Lord, it’s important to remind the enemy of our souls, that I AM A CHILD OF THE KING. He never will leave us alone. We are fodder for his minions. Lord, help us remember that verse from I John, 4:4 “Greater is HE that is in me, than he that is in the world.”Honestly Lord.....I do forget this sometimes when I’m in a battle....I’m so sorry. I want to always have this on my lips. Until You come for us, he will roam about as a roaring lion seeking whom he may devour. He can do that! Roar, I mean. If we aren’t paying attention, there’s so much noise around us usually, he can do that by interfering with our thoughts of God, with thoughts like, “Why not?” Or ”Who really cares? Or “No one really knows? Or “Come on, it’s no big deal!”
It is, Lord! It is our eternity! I’m waiting for You, Lord.....especially now that John is gone. I’ll do my best to be the warrior for You that You need me to be!
In Your name, I write this prayer to You. Amen.
