Isn't it interesting, Lord?  I can find myself in the midst of a busy day.....lots of people demanding my time.....overwhelming duties.......and I find myself creating dialog with You, wishing I could just sit down and write. Thank You for giving me that need, but, Lord.....there is one thing I'd like to change.  The enemy and his intention to keep me busy with all of the things that take my intention to talk to You for "another" time.  He did it yesterday and the day before.  No one understands like You do.  You are a friend beyond compare.  What amazes  me is that You will stop what You are doing when I need to speak to You.  And You listen.  But then, I think.....realistically, I hate bothering you with my piddly wants and what I think are needs. So often, the opinions  others wield over me and go against my inclinations, Lord......well, they do influence too often what I do.   As we get to this place in our lives where we have to depend on the kindness of others.....or not, is hard to handle.  So often we feel so indebted, it really is hard to know how You want us to reciprocate.....if it is even possible.  There are needs and desires in everyone's life.  Some just want better health.  Others......feel that just to have someone think they have worth.....Oh, Lord, I guess that is about the saddest.  You know my heart.  The inner workings and the aches and pains of it.  I pray, dear One, that I will never let You down.  I want to show You how I can be true to the  fact that You called me to be a disciple of Yours. When we left the parsonage the other day......I felt free, Lord.  I felt as if I had done the best for You that I could.  (I do realize, sadly, that my best.....is not enough for me.)  As I picked up my ipad and read the verse for the day, I was comforted by the words I saw.  From Hebrews 6:10, I saw....."God is not unjust;  He will not forget Your work and the love You have shown Him as you have helped His people and continue to help them."  It happens so often.  When I feel "not good enough" , You take the time to show me what I need to see in Your word.  I'm getting used to this, Lord. I am grateful for your love to me.  Thank You for Your presence in my life.
I speak these words in the name of Jesus.  Amen.