I don't feel too much like writing today, Lord. But, I feel that there are so many things I should do
today that if I don't ask Your help and prioritizing things for me....I will lay down on the couch and take a nap. My bones ache. My spirit aches. My head aches. And, unless You pry me off
this place of respite....I will not be happy at the end of the day. No matter how sore I am, when
I get to the later hours of the day and I have crossed off the major part of a list....it makes me
feel ....well, like less of a loser. I'm sorry about saying that too, Lord. I know the devil loves it
when I badmouth myself. And, I've got to stop it. As Dr. Phil says to people all the time...."So,
tell me, what's your payoff for doing this?" and everyone looks at him and blinks, and says, "I
don't get a payoff." And, then he delves right into the "solution". Yeah, I guess I do get a payoff. Somebody usually says something like, " You really do too much ".....or ......"Why don't
you let someone help you". Like I said the other day to You....some attention is better
than no attention. I am in that category today, pathetic as it may be. And, so, I ask for Your strength to lift me to a
higher place than I could ever dream to be, today. I need You to lift me and carry me into the pursuits
I will find myself today. I am blessed to be receiving friends and family to our home through-
out the holidays. I want those who enter these doors to not only enjoy the lights and sounds
and warmth of Christmas but to feel the Christ of Christmas enveloping them, giving them
peace and strength. I have that responsibility. I want to do that part for You....preparing the
way, for your children. Right now, as I write, I think it isn't possible for You to do this for me.
The longer I sit here and write this letter to You....I find myself thinking, ...." after I finish this
letter I'm going to rest here for a few minutes" and then I'll get busy." I am maintaining to You
that I will not do this. I've got stuff to do. Now, Lord....now is when I need to stand up and
start walking. I guess I will start arranging furniture in the basement and then to decorate the
tree for down there. It's the Christmas present opening place for the family when they come.
Lord, for the traveling that starts today....for our family and friends....would you provide your
protective care....the angels that live among us , may they give us the nurturing touch of thanks-
giving and love for You as we go about our duties. Thank You that we can carry the torch for
You today. Some special gentlemen are suffering today....perhaps You are preparing the way
for them .....would You give them peace without pain and a sense of You nearby offering comfort
to them. The illnesses that plague Your people just deplete us. Give my husband the words
and wisdom to be the instrument You need him to be for You today. We are so blessed to be
Your servants this day. For now, I pray and say all in the name of Jesus, amen and amen.
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