"MY LETTERS TO GOD"

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Lord.....I really think it is funny.....and not, "funny ha-ha, either"........ how YOU step into my life and make a statement to me without saying a word. I say this to You.....because, I really thought You agreed with me about this particular issue. 'Course, I have a tendency to think You know I am right. I usually do think You do......since I am such a paragon of virtue and a "willing" disciple. To say this out loud makes me feel a little foolish, in all reality. And, I am sorry I sound so egotistical. That is not where I want to be, Lord! Please forgive my attitude and help me to do better. So, anyway..... when You squelch my plan of action, and I realize that I am not "ALL THAT"....... I am a little shaken. It's not often that I feel I have to make a "statement"......and, I usually don't just rush in and start my presentation. I try to always remember that I am supposed to be Your servant.....and speak words that You would be pleased to deliver Yourself. Lord....I thank You for protecting me from myself. It is sort of amazing to me how You work. I shouldn't be so surprised. I ask Your will to be done through me.....I want to be the Instrument for You that I should be.....and then, when You cut me off.....and, make it impossible for me to speak.....well......I twitch a little bit! So......okay. I did get Your message.....loud and clear. Now what? Is that the end of it? It is a bit ridiculous. Really ridiculous. "What is?", You ask. How I could possibly think that You always want me to do Your talking for You. I told my Sunday School class the other Sunday that it is "always best" when You, dear One, do the talking. Hmmm.....I guess I should listen to myself once in a while. I am all into that right now! I will try to never forget that again. And, if I do.....uh......feel free to step in!

"Lord Jesus, I long to be perfectly whole; I want Thee forever to live in my soul. Break down every idol.....cast out every foe. Now wash me and I will be whiter than snow."
I will forever be grateful, Jesus......that You are the Guiding Light for me.....always. I want to be "Whiter than Snow"....always. I do not want my will to overwhelm Your will......ever.

Jesus, saturate me with Your power whether I like it or not. I will follow what You need for me to do. Lord, I pray in the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth. Your will, only. Amen.....for now.

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Introduction to "My Letters To God"

My letters to God came about by my need to communicate with Him on a regular basis. I needed to, as a christian, a wife and a mother notwithstanding, pray every day. As a young mother I found myself almost continually interrupted by my two little girls. All for necessary and legitimate reasons. You and I both know satan uses every trick in the book to keep us from communing with God and I felt that he was definately getting the upperhand. So, one day out of sheer desperation, I grabbed a sheet of paper or a notebook (I don't remember) and began to scribble out a prayer for God to come and rescue me. I needed to tell Him EXACTLY how I felt. I needed Him and felt that this was my only recourse. Invariably, before I started writing, when I was interrupted I hardly ever would go back to my devotion time. I'd forget where I was in my prayertime and it all seemed futile.....after all, the wash had to be done, the beds had to be made, baths needed to be taken care of.....etcettera.....etcettera....etcettera. After the first attempt, I tried it again and again until this wonderful habit was formed for me. I could literally stop mid-sentence and almost always go back , and pick up where I had left off. As I found my time with God lengthening because of my determination to do this, it ended up being my solace. Even with two more daughters and a son as the years went by. I often found that it was truly a wonderful thing when I would search for a word that described what I REALLY felt. Many times in my prayertime prior to this , I would skim over the

hard parts that would express my angst to Him sort of mumbling, "Lord, you know what I mean.....". I was so terribly desperate to express how I really felt. To that, I could only tell Him in my tears and fears and frustration hoping He would still love me. I'd reread sometimes and find that I was alot meaner than I knew He would be pleased with.....or, I was not as bad as I believed I was.

Writing to God has followed me into the years that the world says are the "senior years". It doesn't matter to me. As long as I can hold a pen and write Him all of my heart thoughts, the "mind stealers" will not deter me. I am determined to be God's instrument. I will blow my horn for Him as long as He gives me breath!

As I share my letters with you, past and present, may you find in Him the solace that you need. He will give that to each of us. This is my prayer.

"MY LETTERS TO GOD"

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