"MY LETTERS TO GOD": SO.....What do YOU want ME to do?

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

SO.....What do YOU want ME to do?

Well, here is my dilemna. I have the tools. I have the desire (most of the time). I want to please You. I love to do things that please You. I like the warmth of Your smile on my face. What is it I can do that will give me peace and You, dear One , a little "worry-free rest". I know it is impossible for You to be weary or worried.....but, You know what I mean, Lord. Just once I'd love for You to not be concerned that I am going to NOT be the instrument for You that You planned for me to be. Forget the sentence structure , Lord. You know my heart and my desire to please You. There are many times I have failed and I know You could recite this, chapter and verse, but You hear the cries of my heart...... and see my hearts desire as I view it......You also know the level of understanding I have in doing what You plan for me to do for You. Understanding the whole picture is often what keeps me from following through.....so often. Of course then, the devil wins. I have gone off on a tangent, close by and all very legitimate, but not in Your plan for me at all. Help me to remain focused on what I find that You are pressing me to do! " Understanding the whole picture is not what I need to focus on". You know what, Lord? I'll just bet I would look at You and say (silently of course!) "No way, Jose!" Understanding Your plan......seeing the end from the begining......? Forget it. It's interesting and enlightening to see what You allowed to happen and how "all things work together for our good and Your glory......". This is usually always misunderstood. How many times I have heard someone we are ministering to ......quote or partly quote that verse and ask ....."How could this possibly work out to be for my good and God's glory?" And, Lord.....I usually have no answer. Atleast not one that I would consider "insightful". ( Regrettably Lord, I often try to impress with my "wisdom". Sorry.)

Thank You Father for the promise of bright hope for this new year. Pleasing You and nurturing the seeds that have been planted throughout the last year are my goal. I realize my ambition to serve You wisely and effectively is a bit over-dramatized......but, I want to assure You my desire is true. Give me Your power, Lord. Implant Your favor on me today. Bless me as I need to be blessed. I give You complete reign.

For You......I ask all in the name of Jesus. And, Your will to be done, ultimately. Amen.

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Introduction to "My Letters To God"

My letters to God came about by my need to communicate with Him on a regular basis. I needed to, as a christian, a wife and a mother notwithstanding, pray every day. As a young mother I found myself almost continually interrupted by my two little girls. All for necessary and legitimate reasons. You and I both know satan uses every trick in the book to keep us from communing with God and I felt that he was definately getting the upperhand. So, one day out of sheer desperation, I grabbed a sheet of paper or a notebook (I don't remember) and began to scribble out a prayer for God to come and rescue me. I needed to tell Him EXACTLY how I felt. I needed Him and felt that this was my only recourse. Invariably, before I started writing, when I was interrupted I hardly ever would go back to my devotion time. I'd forget where I was in my prayertime and it all seemed futile.....after all, the wash had to be done, the beds had to be made, baths needed to be taken care of.....etcettera.....etcettera....etcettera. After the first attempt, I tried it again and again until this wonderful habit was formed for me. I could literally stop mid-sentence and almost always go back , and pick up where I had left off. As I found my time with God lengthening because of my determination to do this, it ended up being my solace. Even with two more daughters and a son as the years went by. I often found that it was truly a wonderful thing when I would search for a word that described what I REALLY felt. Many times in my prayertime prior to this , I would skim over the

hard parts that would express my angst to Him sort of mumbling, "Lord, you know what I mean.....". I was so terribly desperate to express how I really felt. To that, I could only tell Him in my tears and fears and frustration hoping He would still love me. I'd reread sometimes and find that I was alot meaner than I knew He would be pleased with.....or, I was not as bad as I believed I was.

Writing to God has followed me into the years that the world says are the "senior years". It doesn't matter to me. As long as I can hold a pen and write Him all of my heart thoughts, the "mind stealers" will not deter me. I am determined to be God's instrument. I will blow my horn for Him as long as He gives me breath!

As I share my letters with you, past and present, may you find in Him the solace that you need. He will give that to each of us. This is my prayer.

"MY LETTERS TO GOD"

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Wednesday, January 4, 2012

SO.....What do YOU want ME to do?

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