"MY LETTERS TO GOD"

Friday, December 30, 2011

Oh, dear One.....how in the world do I ever begin to thank You for the gift of life. My hope and my commitment to You is first and foremost in my resolve for the new year. You have allowed me to live and given me health and fortitude to persevere when my senses are barely functioning. I continue to depend on You for the possibilities that make me a person of worth at all. I thank You for the gifts You have provided me to make any contribution to those I love and have committed myself to. Being able to make any house our home throughout our life together has always been so much fun for me. I think You made that one of my talents. To be able to provide our children with a comfortable and cozy place to grow in and to enjoy a " soft place to fall" has always been my goal as a mom. You gave that to me, Lord. I thank You for the blessing of having them all want to come "home" for a few days just to enjoy old memories and make new ones. I praise You for the children You have blessed my husband and me with. We are so blessed......so overwhelmingly so, that breathing is difficult at times. These are treasured gifts that I will never, ever take for granted. I wrote at one time that to have son-in-laws and grandchildren that love us is icing on the cake. It is amazing to me how we are so fulfilled. I am filled to the brim with Your blessings. Thank You Father for the blessing of being assured of eternal life with You. I want nothing to deter me from that goal. I want to make You proud of the life I live for You. I don't want You to be ashamed of the individual You expect me to be.....or ever planned for me to accomplish for You. I am pretty old to be talking about "being all You want me to be"......but, Lord......I know You have plans for us as Your children. I know we are Your instruments. What I can accomplish for You is still up in the air. Help me not to weaken in my attempts to make You smile. It is IN YOU that I live and move and have my being. I give You my heart, Lord. I praise and give You my obedience in all You show me You want changed. In Your name and will I ask for Your favor and blessings. I love You Lord. Amen.

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Christy Davis DivenJanuary 1, 2012 at 6:39 PM
Beautiful mom....I've always appreciated the time, effort and energy that you would put into our home, our special dresses you would make for us or whatever it might have been. You would sometimes work tirelessly just so we could have something special. I have so many good memories....because of you and the love you have for each of us kids. Thank you is never enough, nor is it said enough.....I truly appreciate all the extras you and dad still continue to do for each of us. Love you both so much!!
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Introduction to "My Letters To God"

My letters to God came about by my need to communicate with Him on a regular basis. I needed to, as a christian, a wife and a mother notwithstanding, pray every day. As a young mother I found myself almost continually interrupted by my two little girls. All for necessary and legitimate reasons. You and I both know satan uses every trick in the book to keep us from communing with God and I felt that he was definately getting the upperhand. So, one day out of sheer desperation, I grabbed a sheet of paper or a notebook (I don't remember) and began to scribble out a prayer for God to come and rescue me. I needed to tell Him EXACTLY how I felt. I needed Him and felt that this was my only recourse. Invariably, before I started writing, when I was interrupted I hardly ever would go back to my devotion time. I'd forget where I was in my prayertime and it all seemed futile.....after all, the wash had to be done, the beds had to be made, baths needed to be taken care of.....etcettera.....etcettera....etcettera. After the first attempt, I tried it again and again until this wonderful habit was formed for me. I could literally stop mid-sentence and almost always go back , and pick up where I had left off. As I found my time with God lengthening because of my determination to do this, it ended up being my solace. Even with two more daughters and a son as the years went by. I often found that it was truly a wonderful thing when I would search for a word that described what I REALLY felt. Many times in my prayertime prior to this , I would skim over the

hard parts that would express my angst to Him sort of mumbling, "Lord, you know what I mean.....". I was so terribly desperate to express how I really felt. To that, I could only tell Him in my tears and fears and frustration hoping He would still love me. I'd reread sometimes and find that I was alot meaner than I knew He would be pleased with.....or, I was not as bad as I believed I was.

Writing to God has followed me into the years that the world says are the "senior years". It doesn't matter to me. As long as I can hold a pen and write Him all of my heart thoughts, the "mind stealers" will not deter me. I am determined to be God's instrument. I will blow my horn for Him as long as He gives me breath!

As I share my letters with you, past and present, may you find in Him the solace that you need. He will give that to each of us. This is my prayer.

"MY LETTERS TO GOD"

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